Wondering where God is?

Many times we go thru phases in life that either take us to higher heights or sometimes u feel like they are sucking all the life out of you.. I have had a chance to go through some trying times and I have had to ask myself difficult questions, stopped believing in myself, wondered if God cared at all or if he was hearing any of my prayers.... but the answer to suffering cannot just be an abstract idea, because this isn't an abstract issue; it's a personal issue. It requires a personal response. The answer must be someone, not just something, because the issue involves someone - "God, where are you?" Many times during times of disteress, pain and loss we ask ourselves this question.


"Jesus is there, sitting beside us in the lowest places of our lives," and he has always said Are we broken? He was broken, like bread, for us. Are we despised? He was despised and rejected of men. Do we cry out that we can't take any more? He was a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. Do people betray us? He was sold out himself. Are our tenderest relationships broken? He too loved and was rejected. Do people turn from us? They hid their faces from him as a from a leper...


He is despised in many parts of this fallen world. He's the one we love to hate, yet to us he has chosen to return love. Every tear we shed becomes his tear. He may not wipe them away yet, but he will."


You know in all this..... as many explainations we may need as to why we are suffering or going through what we do...God knew Jesus was more than an explanation,"  "He's what we really need. If your friend is sick and dying, the most important thing he wants is not an explanation; he wants you to sit with him. He's terrified of being alone more than anything else. If  you are hurting always rememeber that God has not left us alone."

God has and will always be there with us even if all the world walks out. So pick up any pieces that you have dropped during the turmoil and give them to the only man who know how to patch them up.

Will leave you with that..

Talk to you soon. Cant believe I have not blogged in a while. Missed it.


Love y'all!

Bait of Satan

This post is dedicated to two great friends of mine who do not realise what they may be but for me have been the best friends I could ever have and have stood by me through all this time. It has been a trying phase for me and I am just taking one step at a time....

I have been reading a book by John Bevere : Bait of Satan. This book speaks about offence and how if we take offence we are actually affecting ourselves and sinning.

“Holding grudges will consume your emotional energy… if you let it.”


Holding grudges uses lots of emotional energy. And, when your emotional energy is tied up in a grudge, it holds you in the past. Grudges hold energy hostage and it’s not until you forgive that your energy can be restored.

Think of forgiveness as something you do for yourself. Think of it as something that makes you stronger, not weaker.

If you’re holding grudges, let them go. Seek reconciliation if needed. If you find it hard to forgive then start with the small grudges and work your way up. The physical feeling of relief and the energy reclaimed will be well worth it.



Forgive today. It’s time to move on!

Catch you soon peeps!

Don't let this steal your dreams!!!

Hand in hand with setbacks and challenges comes discouragement. Its ferocity can stop you in your tracks and before you know it your dreams seem unreachable. Stop! This is only true if you give in.


Today is the day you will conquer discouragement. Today is the day you will feel more determined and stronger than ever. Today is the day you will put one foot in front of the other and persevere.


Make a commitment to yourself that you will never give up when you feel disheartened, but rather, you will view these feelings as a sign to work harder.


You’re entitled to your dreams and aspirations. So why not make this commitment today?

I made mine this morning and it feels awesome! Loving me already!

In the father's house

On the one hand there is the persistent memory of the past with its failures, hurts, shame, and guilt. On the other hand there is the revelation of the gospel that shows me who I now am in Christ. In so many of our lives, the voice of condemnation drowns out the voice of revelation. It is so much easier to focus our eyes on us than on the Lamb.

We become overwhelmed with the memory of our past rather than fixing our gaze on the robe, the ring, the sandals, the fatted calf-all symbols of our Father's grace lavished upon us. We walk down that dark road to find a corner in the servants' quarters.

Your journey to the Father's house begins with that first step of changing your mind about who you perceive yourself to beand who you truly are.

When you do change your mind about who you are, you will change you mind about where you live, moving out of the cold and isolated quarters of the servant into the warmth and intimacy of the Father's house.

Thats an inspiration I read today while trying to break out of a cucoon cycle of a terrible day.

And with that said I leave you with the quote:

"No body can go back and start a new beginning, but any one can start today and make a new ending! Today is the day I start my new begining!

Are you chasing happiness?

“Happiness is wanting what you have, not having what you want.”
At first glance this sounds like the same thing, take a closer look, it’s not.

If you’re completely fulfilled by spending time with your friends and family because you really want to be with them then you truly want what you have.

On the flip side, if you drive the nicest car and have a huge house, and have worked hard to get those things, then you’ve been successful at having what you want.


When you have what you want eventually the feeling of satisfaction wears off. Once you get what you want the old wants are replaced by new wants and the cycle continues. True happiness remains at bay.
Look around you, happiness may be closer than you think. It may just be a matter of changing what you value.

Today I take on time to find the things that make me really happy and love what I have..

Oh by the way I am leave...but stepped in just to see how my peeps are doing

Having a bad day???

“It’s just one of those days.”

There will be days when you’ll end up having a melt down, freaking out, and going into an emotional tailspin. For me today is one of those days....I have been shutting it out, pretending its a good day and lying to myself that I am just being negative.... But I have realised that It’s completely normal. The key is to let it happen.

What’s important is, once it’s over, you need to pick up the pieces and regain your composure. This is your responsibility. It’s crucial not to beat yourself up because you lost control. Remember a fall out doesn’t mean failure.
Expect bad days every once in a while. These days may scare and upset you, but realize they are all part of life.
A great day is just around the corner!


I cant wait or end of day...oe end of the phase so I can look back on it and say that this too has passed!


Catch you soon

Early Morn workout

I am feeling yei today...I was up at 5 to try something really new to me. I love to work out and some of my friends call me a workout freak but I had never pushed it this far. Actually if i told them what I just did they would call me crazy

I did about 5k's and feel proud of myself. It is totally worth it to work out and saves us a whole lot of health issues tho people do not see it that way..

I plan to keep this up tho it is damn hard!